Returning favor to God...

I was seating on a side lower berth of "Shram Shakti" express at Delhi railway station during my regular tour to my home town when I just started getting frustrated on myself for not offering "Namaaz" regularly. I just started feeling very bad on myself and realized that its long since I prayed without reasons (except Friday Jamaat) just to praise Allah and to feel his presence around me. While I was in this thinking process and train had strated leaving the platform, I found that there was a boy of my age who didn't get the reservation in train and was asking me if he can sit at a side of my berth. At the momment an idea sparked in my mind that it is the best time to return a small favor to the God (which I was not doing by not offering Namaaz) by allowing him to sit at an end of my berth. I welcomed him warmly and told him to **feel free** to sit in a corner of my berth. Now I was feeling a little relaxed and started thinking how Allah gives us small opportunities to return his favors and **how easy** it is to do so (Opportunities knock door sometimes very softly).

I just felt very happy that God has given me the oppportunity to prove my dedication towards him. The guy came in a minute and sat down the other side of the berth. Now it was the time when my mind started thinking of other things i.e. what are all the actions I had to complete at my home e.g. Dad's medical check-up, opening one more account in a nearby bank and some other trifle tasks started crwaling in my thought process when I realized that the guy whom I had offered the corner of my berth had now put his "feel free freeedom" to an excessive usage i.e. he started snoring and his legs were touching my nose and he was occupying nearly 40% of my berth. I felt if it go like this at some time during the night I would be occupying a lesser part and wouldn't be able to sleep properly and will be forced to complete my rest of the sleep at comfortable cushions of my home that implies that all those tasks that were in my mind will go to oblivion. It also came to my mind that this guy should be thinking me as a fool who is offering his reserved seat too generously to a stranger and what about those gals would be thinking about me seating right to my Side Lower berth....also this guy doesn't have the manner to utilize the independence genuinely....what he think about me...how dare he keep his stinking legs too close of my nose.....he even didn't pay for the seat he is occupying.......grrrrrrrrrrr?? Now all these thoughts started irritating me and this irrtiation then changed to the action (I had learnt somewhere that to release a form of energy you need to convert it to some other form of energy.....) and I found myself first pushing him gently to awake and then shouting in his ears - "Gentleman I offered you to only sit it on this berth and hence you are not eligible to occupy more than 10%....if you want to sleep here then there is a lot of space at floor....feel free to use that" - and slept. The guy left the seat very calmly in the next second and lost somewhere in the train. Thoughts again started crawling......so Mr. Shiraz how easy is it to return a small favor to God???

I felt that I had been put to an examination by The Almighty Allah where I had failed completely......I failed to prove my devotiness...I failed to accept small uneasiness faced in the path of Allah.......I got influenced by Iblees only in some minutes.........God made me to realize the truth of my atheistic heart, so easily...... so calmly......