Happy to be lonely

I always enjoy the fun of being lonely. Somehow concept of loneliness fascinates me. While you are alone you can do anything you like, you can sing in your dirty voice, nobody will bother, you can enjoy dancing on the floor, nobody will be there to say it is a prohibited activity, you can write anything, you can read anything of your choice including those titillating things :), you can watch your favorite channel without disturbance, you can talk your favorite things to your favorite people in a favorite way, you can clean your room without feeling shy, you can change your bedcover and pillow cover without feeling it to be a girlish thing, you can decorate your living room and keep the books aligned on a rack, you can clean your toilet, bathroom and kitchen without feeling it to be a job of someone else, you can listen to your favorite old songs, you can browse your favorite websites over the net, you can enter to a yahooroom and can chat dirty with people there (basaically I dont like it, used to do during early romance with internet in my first year only), you can read newspaper, hunt words, read blogs, watch movies dumped in your system without any disturbance and ultimately you can go outside and see different variety of people doing numerous things in a particular way. In your loneliness only you can think about your actions and improve yourself to be a better person, in your loneliness only you get time to think about your false actions, confession and regretting from Almighty.

Life in office is official life, life at home with family or spouse is family life, time we spend with friends is social life, when do we get personal life to improve ourselves, to think about the quality of life we are living in a whole week???.....its really very less for me (only during weekend and if nobody come to my house and partners are outside to some place for which I have no any inerest)......now I think I should derive out some more time for me......sometimes I really think to leave this disssatisfied world and turn to be a monk to lose somewhere in the caves of Himalayan range.....renunciation from the materialistic and lustful world.......wow!!! what a fascinating idea!!!!!.....but can I make it in my life???