Shiraz, what do you want from your life??

Somebody in a sweet voice just threw something from the next cubicle....ok ok dont pressurize your brain; it was a question - Shiraz, what do you want from your life??
this question and the way it has been thrown was the perfect example of "zor ka jhatka dheerey se lagey" campaign.... let me admit that this particle of the Great God in human body sometimes really shakes my mind, boggle it down....
my tongue under the control of brain refused to accompany me at the last moment which was planning to prompt, "I have given nothing to my life and there is no reason for me to expect anything from someone to whom I have given nothing....", but brain twisted it to say.. "heyi sorry...not the right time yaar.. will discuss sometime later in good detail..."...
and now this is the moment when this question is bugging me.. what is my aim?? why am I here in this world?? what I have to achieve in this world?? and when finally if I have to die then whats the point in achieving something?? is my achievement affect someone or does it solve some mystical purpose?? I know religions have thess answers in good detail.....(and the reason being that I am not the only first born stupid.. many would have come before me...and religion has evolved answering these boar-headed people )...... but again what a logical mind says?? Do we have any answer??
ok, leave life fundaaas aside anf lets move a little ahead....coming back to the original question...I can enumerate following things as to achieve in my life:
1. I want my life to be a decent one.. ..no show-offs or luxury but simple and easy...
2. I will like to spend a good time with my family and friends while going ahead in my life....
3. I will like to be respected and will respect all people around me (but this respect bounary with friends always gets thin...)...
4. I will like to have a constant decent income.. ..by which I can support all my family needs sufficiently...(I can again recall a big argument over defining a decent income in my past...)..
5. Working with a good, self-less and fair NGO is always being my dream.. fulfillment of this dream will be considered as an added value.
6. I will like to finish Quran atleast once in my life with complete meaning and understanding....
7. and then a respectable death....

**Well, I dont think I am expecting too much... no big dreams at all.. just a clean unhurt life.. nothing more....

Search of Principle

Shiraz - heyi what all principles do you have in your life??
Kashif - ummmmm.....I dont think that I follow any principles.. well, do you have any??
Shiraz - I dont think so...I always bend (or flex) those things which I believe are my principles...so finally their existence is just negligible...
Kashif - yeah yaar.. same problem here...
Shiraz - but yar Kashif...people should have principles in life and they should pursue it so that their life mean something.... an aimless random life is nothing.... no value addition...nothing...
Kashif - yaar.. we also have principles but we change it when we find someone else priniciple better than us.. we either absorb it or start imitating.....finally @ cost of our own principle and the problem lies that we ourselves don't respect our own principle...
Shiraz - but give it a mind when and why do we change or tend to change our own principles...as far as I think we tend to bend our own principles most of the times just to see people around me happy....
Kashif - heyi, same goes with me...whenever it comes other people happiness or even for sometimes for complete strangers whenever I find that my principle is causing unhappiness ... i bend to change it.. sacrifice it...
Shiraz - does it mean that our priniciple is to keep people around us happy @ cost of our own selves??
Kashif - hmmmm.. seems like.. probably you are true as I an recall many incidents where I did such things and even on the cost of heavy monetary loss :( (knowingly done) ... yeah, but it satisfied me and I am happy that I did the right thing....

Haphazardical

Hi Guys,
Apologies to keep you guys waiting for my new post (in case if somebody is so "faltu" in the whole world who was waiting for me to post) for a long time and this time I have lot of things to share with you, but again all of them are so confidential that I can't tell you :( and basically there is no point telling you guys all inputs and outputs of my life, why should I do that?? tell me if you have any answer!!
Nobody in the world has enough time to bog down his head with your problems, so keep your problem to yourself and search answers yourself instead of throwing question to public forum like this place.....but on a second note I think atleast I should keep archiving my problem for myself that can be accessible from anywhere and at anytime and that is the reason I am putting here, but not in the crisp form so that you could deduce anything :D .... and it make sense too as only I should know my problem and I have to search answers myself:
So, here goes the updates:
1. After the last party which I had posted last time we made two more get-together parties with Engg. ex-classmates @Spice and @ CC. Friends, I can never forget Al-Bake's Shawarma yaar.... they are marvellous..nothing beats those Shawarma, it rocks yaar!!!
2. My last impression about my ex-school classmates has been finally broken when I got to know that most of them are in Delhi and they miss me and they were just not contacting me because they somehow concluded that I am not interested (or conceit enufff...) in those guys.....but we resolve all our problems and soon will be getting together at somewhere in Noida or Delhi only.. hopefully!!
3. Have not gone to home for last 3 weeks.... need to go to home next week.. news are not good from home.. means things are getting bad day-by-day :( ....
4. The small amount of spirituality is almost died somewhere inside me.
5. All good friends around me are facing their bad days and each of them need counselling.. but I myself need counselling and because I am not helping them in their bad time, I am feeling guilty.
6. Feeling myself not devotedly dedicated to my job which gives me food and thus eating bugs me....and it bugs me more when I eat office lunch....
7. Only good news is that I bought a new 80GB HDD and DVD Burner so as to save my so non-precious data.... but the question is Who will write my content into DVDs??
8. Baffled by the situation when went to Nizamuddin Dargah and my heart refused to go inside Mosque to offer Namaaz & was staring gulz at that Holy place :O!!! Where my commitment to that old Buzurg in Aligarh has vanished??
.... lots more!! not feeling like to key down all of them...
bye!!

Dark Grievances

These creatures at this place thinks themselves as supersmart people who can outsmart anyone on the earth by their fake smiling, diplomatic way of talking and cool attitude, what they dont know that they can't hide their originality when put in extreme situations (if you could remember the "Panchtantra story" where a fox was using a Lion's skin...)... These guys have dark griefs filled in their heart over the time and from which they have never tried to get rid of; instead they have developed these fake artificial intelligence to cover it... they have killed their real sense of feelings and have owned an artificial way of reactions to numerous daily life situations.... In my opinion these people shoul be hanged to death for killing their own spirit intead of being aprpeciated for their real-life like acting to cover their true faces ........