Insomniac

It was raining fast with high-speed wind blowing outside. I came out in my balcony to enjoy the weather when a little blow of rain washed my face. I liked these droplets of water over my face and wished if it could sustain forever. Quite contrary to my this "wild desire", it got dried. Message is clear, either I am a fool who desired for such kind of thing or I am too weak to resist against environment, situations, society and everything around me. It also told me that I am not the person to decide what should happen with me and what shouldn't, but its the nature, the destiny, the environment which makes decision for me and I am supposed to peacefully abide by it.
Thinking in the same pattern and assuming myself to be a part of environment, have I ever affected somebody else in sense of causing them to loose some of their very precious thing?...has it ever been happened when I became the part of environment to cause somebody that tremendous amount of pain of "loss"?
**Now I am still wondering why the hell title says Insomniac??